I got new glasses recently
and I hate how I look in my old glasses, so I hummed and hawwed for ages, and the sales clerk guy was very patient with me and was very helpful. But he talked me into these glasses that look kind of hipster, and he convinced me they looked good, but now that I’ve received them I absolutely hate them too. I look terrible and dumb in them and it makes me feel bad about myself. Even though my old ones don’t make me look especially good, they’re less there, and these ones are just too bold. Ugh, I feel so anxious and hideous when I wear them. :/ I wasted so much money.
anxiety and mood issues
I’ve been going to counselling this semester, but the wait times are so long I’ve only seen the councellor three times and only have one more appointment before I move away for four months. I don’t know, I flirt with the idea of taking medication so I can perhaps operate like a regular person, or at least not have my vision so clouded by (alternatingly) overwhelming emotion (anxious or melancholic) and then “emptiness.” But then I read about side effects, addiction and withdrawal and change my mind, and I go about my life feeling the same dumb shit over and over.
ugh
i’m in such a bad mood today
gpoy my first day of anything
